us

it's been two yrs or 2.5 yrs v knew each other
1.5 yrs in school n 1 yrs after v graduate
during d 1st half yr i met her...definitely, ntg bout her 4 me
until d cny in coming yr
i visited her
contacted a litle bit
texting
noe sumthing bout her
then it's my attempt 2 get closer wit her
day by day...v got closer...n tat's d limit 4 FREN 4 me
after our school days, there's 1 time she left
i thou tat's ol 4 us...yet. i kept trying 2 contact her (i was shocked as i found tat i really keen on tat)
she came bec after cny
work in m'sia
a yr pass~
n i think it's a rountine 4 us...juz an extra 1 yr wit samething
nw...she's going 2 leave again...

mess

i hate when sumthing is not managed properly
it can cause many problems
but yet, stil many persons don't caution on this...
zzz
i duno y...
mayb they take it as silly things><
watever it is, no mol such mess up pls~

u r d 1

u r d 1 i m worried
but u r d 1 made me feel frustated when i noe u r not caring of urself
and i feel disapointed when i noe u r not wit me
i wish i can scold u but i couldn't
and wat i can give is only advice + caring
tat's ol i have wit u
...
hope u r not going 2 do dis again..pls~

ego

i found tat every1 is becoming mol n mol ego
zz
y???
i m wondering
is it bcoz their better academic performance???
or is it bcoz their r able 2 earn money on their own and they think they r nw so outstanding???
and even worse they think they r so important in our life, v can't survive w/o them???
ol i can say....fxxk off!!!!

sad

she told me..
she's going 2 study in singapore nex year
3 yrs study n work there after graduate
wat a grit plan!!!
but!!!!
at d same time, i mayb lost her once n 4 ol
hw i m gona kip in touch wit her???
sms??
msn??
facebook????
no way!!!
v can't meet each other or even make a call 2 her...
sad~~
shall i juz let her go n 4get her???
sad,haizzzz
really, i love her,wat a nice gal she is, i duno wat wil i do 4 d following 4 months
shall i go n tell wat's my feeling on her?
perhaps she ard noe, but wat if i did??
wil dis change her mind?
n again,wat if she change?
shall i feel happy?4 wat?4 stopping her 2 futher her study in singapore?
her sis is there,4 sure she wudn't has any problem in her daily life
mayb it wil b pretty tough 2 study there
but if she comes over dis, it wud b a grit thing
in d end,i juz can say,haizzzzzz
SAD~

a great nite

enjoyed nbl final
when home
start 2 upload d 4tos n videos
thnx 2 my frens bringing me there..
but
i receive a msg from her
she thnx me 4 2 b so gud 2 her...so care about her..
y she thank me???
she take me as her 'normal fren'??
hope she doesn't...XD

june

it's june...
i got mol than 1 month 2 work
hope everything's ok...
n nex month wil b her birthday...
no idea 4 preparing a gift 4 her...
omg!!!!
hw losu i m???
:(
haha....tak tau la...
见步行步啦。。。XD

my money,,,

it's been long time i haven't meet her...
she's travelling around...
hope she's enjoying...:D
2 months mol 2 go...
4 my jobs...
i may earn bout 1+++...
n then in total wil b 25++
wil tat enuf 4 me???
may i wil spend 1k 4 my phone..
bout 700 4 my spec...
1k 4 trip????
omg...tat wud b insufficient...
zzzz
n btw...her birthday is coming tat time...zzz
hw i m gona celebrate wit her or b4 tat.....hw i m gona prepare her birthday gift????
@.@
zzzzzz
so many plan i have...but not wit d money 2 do so...haha...such a pity i m....

stupid!!!!!

it's been few days..
but still...i can't 4 get tat moment...
his face expression...
his language...
i REALLY can't accept dis!!!!!
i m done wit him....
fuck off!!!!!
i wudn't contact him anymol...
wudn't receveive his call anymol...
n there's only 1 answer 4 his msg..' I M BSY!!!CONTACT U NEX TIME IFFFF I M FREE!!!'
he's totally sucks!!!!
no point i kip in touch wit such guys....
tada otak...
ada pun rumput saja dalam...
tat's wat in my heart 2 describe him...zzZ

it's been so long

so many days passed...
i didn't find a day 2 go 2 her...
n yet she is bsy s well...
zzZ...
really looking 4ward 2 have a day wit her n our gang if possible 2 hang out...:D
watever event it is...eventhou a movie will do s long s i can meet her...
but i m sure...it's quite hard...haha...
perhaps i shall go meet her on her birthday...@.@
dun miz d chance nex time!!!!(dis is 4 myself...zzZ)

my job

it's been few days...
i duno wat's going on actually...
but it gave a bad impression so far...
hopefully 'my gang' wudn't leave me alone so soon...
@.@
if dos ind of things happen on me,i wil fight bec 4 sure...
wish i can pass my days safely in coming months b4 ny Uni life...

happy

2nite...
v chat...
asking d basic...
when i m asking d 'thing'
i got a positive response...
it made me happy...
hahaha..
duno hw 2 describe my feeling...
but it's a happy thing 4 me...
yeah!!!!
^@^

surprised!!!

(juz gonna stand there n watch me burn,tat's olrite...)
tat's my msg tone...
open it wit feeling ntg...
but then i m surprised...
a msg from her!!!
^@^
wishing 4 tat 4 omos 2 months...
but i m wondering..
hw come she sms me when she's leaving...
zzZ..
anyway...feel happy 4 tat...she sms me again(4 las time) when she's home...
but again..she shud b nt around m'sia..hw did she sms me???@.@
watever it is...i have 2 say: WAT A SURPRISING DAY!!!

wat wil i do???

it's been 1 n a half month(i think)
u left juz like tat...
not telling properly...
can't even called u tat time wit ur phone is switched off...
on tat day...i stil remembered but i was not sure s it's done under noisy surrounding...
u left in rush...did u???
no relpy from any msg i sent u...@.@
mayb u r bsy...
or u juz kip ignoring me...zzZ
can't take my mind off u...(part of lyrics from 'sorry that i loved you' by anthony)
when i meet u nex time(hopefully i do)...
shall i kip my distance from u??
shall i???
or juz take it like ntg???like wat i do on strangers??
zzZZZZ
probably a 'hi' or sumthing like 'hw do u do??'...
or even a teasing like: u r getting prettier...
starting 2 thinking ol dis...
hmmm...
mayb i shud stop ol dis....
n focus on getting some earnings from a job in d coming 6 months...

stiLL

it's been quite long tat...
no reply...
no on9...
zzZ...
where's she actually???
wat's she doing???
hope she's ok in everything...
mayb meet her only in cny...@.@

a special day

morning...
went out 4 breakfast...
a horrible thing happened!!!
i found my wallet was totally blank...
zzZ
luckily d tauke didn't scold me...
haha...
then only i pay him wit d money in my wallet tat used 2 b like a blessing money...
haha...
watever...
thank god tat it didn't bring 2 much problem...