CONCERT!!!

1st time in my life...went 4 a concert!!! totally amazing!!! it's big bang in front me... watching their live performance is totally awesome!!! i noe their songs r nice...but when comes along wit d audio system, their live performance, i juz can't describe my feelings wit words...impressive!!! s simple s tat :) but, 1 thing i feel awkward, i was actually in free seating zone, d pathetic thing, LOL audience around me, i noe they were 'high' in d moment, so do i, yet v can't express our excitement...even v do, tat's totally awkward!!! LOL LOL LOL it was a gud nite 4 me... mayb it's bcoz it was my 1st time 2 go 2 a concert... or mayb i ard impressed by BIG BANG!!! haha, they r really awesome, hope they can come 4 2nd time :)

frens

frens... a term in my mind tat describe people of 1 person has to share with, stay with, enjoy with, talk with, hang out with, interact with... wat i got is ONLY talk wit... so many i have...but yet so few i have in fact... SELFISH, can't be understanding, ego, ignorant...these r d reasons made 'it' 2 be... i made up my mind, n it is definitely d best i can do.. after so many times i have tried my best 2 kip d frenship goes on...but oways end up wit ntg... silence n kip a distance wud be d best thing i can do so far~

recently

recently...
bout u, v have lost contact
duno wat r u bsy wit...perhaps u have started wit ur jobs b4 ut studies tat commence in march
hopefully v can kip in touch after dis, haha
bout me, still kip on spending my times wit studies(tests+assignments)
after tat, i have sum sports and series drama as entertainment
but actually, it's not tat enjoyable 4 me since i m having trouble with my frens' attitudes
wat a dull life....
but i noe i have 2 go on dis....
n wat's my motivation???
it's sure gonna be u!!!gal fren/family + money
haha
tat's life...n i have 2 go on dis!!!!

finally

finally, she left...
n again she ignored me, zzz
i did ask her 2 gimme a call b4 she left
but she didn't
she left in such way tat i can't even meet her in m'sia 4 las time...
she didn't take my call, can't even hear her voice, deng!!!
wat's rong wit her???(i m wondering)><
hope she is ok wit everything over there...
ol d best 2 her!!!!(n oso 2 me...)
watever it is going 2 b, juz let it b...
well...gonna visit her nex time~
again, it's COMPLICATED!!!

...

ntg in mind
blank
no happiness
no sadness
i understood
4 sure she means sumthing 4 me
but since
i m stil dun have d ability
ntg is better 4 me 2 let her go
in fact i dun ever have her b4
ntg 2 do nw
juz wish her ol d best
focus on my studies
enjoy my current life
or if i can't enjoy it, mayb i shud pass my days in silence
means tat wit no excitement anymol
dis is d best way 4 me so far
if d chance is stil there after i have my own career, sure, i wil go 4 it!!!
wish us ol d best!!!

recent days

3 weeks 4 my sem break...
1st week...stay home coz of my injured legs
2nd week...stay home 4 flu + slight asthma...
3rd week...recovering from sickness and injuries
after sickness n injuries, i thou i can have sum enjoyable moments
yet, everything didn't go on as wat i expected...
she ignored me..n even ask me 4 sumthing tat i m not really happy with...
again n again...i duno y..she can juz kip on ignoring me...
i m getting tired wit dis...
even a stranger can smile wit me, but she doesn't even a hi 2 me
it's getting nearer wit d day she's going 2 leave...
after dis, v may can't meet anymol or only few times in a yr...
watever i wish 4 nw is juz 2 have a meal or short moments staying around u...
is it 2 much 4 u???
u really brought me down in mood..
my new sem is here...
i duno can i survive or i can focus on my study or not after dis
mayb i can
but it takes time 4 sure since i noe d fact tat u r no longer reachable 4 me...
cny...looking 4ward???
no idea...great meals?great outing wit frens? great movies?
sounds enjoyable
but..she's leaving after cny...
haizzz
she really mean sumthing 4 me~

wat i m thinking about u

it's getting nearer wit d date u r going 2 leave
i tried and tried 2 contact u
but yet wat did i get???
nope!
u didn't reply my msg...n btw, shall i proceed 2 phone call u???
it's definitely unnecessary...
mayb u r bsy wit sumthing...but as i c...u r not!!since u r free 2 surf d net
i duno wat 2 say...
i m jealous oso when i noe u r interacting wit ur frens but u can juz ignore me...y???
i m clear tat v r stil frens, n u can juz ignore me
again....d only thing i can do is keeping down/silent
but i m juz trying 2 care bout u...is it 2 over 4 u??
mayb it is...but is it tat hard even juz 2 reply a short msg 2 me???
i m so curious!!!n a bit frustrated!!!!

2012

well...a new yr...
wat i m going 2 do r...
study hard...perhaps not tat hard, juz not playing around...
social...nw, i noe who shud i interact wit n who shud i stay away from
finance...less outdoor activities, go on invitation only, nvr do invitation(enuf wit doing tat as well!!!)
tat's ol...
i nid 2 b mature...
at lis better than b4...
happy new yr~