...

ntg in mind
blank
no happiness
no sadness
i understood
4 sure she means sumthing 4 me
but since
i m stil dun have d ability
ntg is better 4 me 2 let her go
in fact i dun ever have her b4
ntg 2 do nw
juz wish her ol d best
focus on my studies
enjoy my current life
or if i can't enjoy it, mayb i shud pass my days in silence
means tat wit no excitement anymol
dis is d best way 4 me so far
if d chance is stil there after i have my own career, sure, i wil go 4 it!!!
wish us ol d best!!!

recent days

3 weeks 4 my sem break...
1st week...stay home coz of my injured legs
2nd week...stay home 4 flu + slight asthma...
3rd week...recovering from sickness and injuries
after sickness n injuries, i thou i can have sum enjoyable moments
yet, everything didn't go on as wat i expected...
she ignored me..n even ask me 4 sumthing tat i m not really happy with...
again n again...i duno y..she can juz kip on ignoring me...
i m getting tired wit dis...
even a stranger can smile wit me, but she doesn't even a hi 2 me
it's getting nearer wit d day she's going 2 leave...
after dis, v may can't meet anymol or only few times in a yr...
watever i wish 4 nw is juz 2 have a meal or short moments staying around u...
is it 2 much 4 u???
u really brought me down in mood..
my new sem is here...
i duno can i survive or i can focus on my study or not after dis
mayb i can
but it takes time 4 sure since i noe d fact tat u r no longer reachable 4 me...
cny...looking 4ward???
no idea...great meals?great outing wit frens? great movies?
sounds enjoyable
but..she's leaving after cny...
haizzz
she really mean sumthing 4 me~

wat i m thinking about u

it's getting nearer wit d date u r going 2 leave
i tried and tried 2 contact u
but yet wat did i get???
nope!
u didn't reply my msg...n btw, shall i proceed 2 phone call u???
it's definitely unnecessary...
mayb u r bsy wit sumthing...but as i c...u r not!!since u r free 2 surf d net
i duno wat 2 say...
i m jealous oso when i noe u r interacting wit ur frens but u can juz ignore me...y???
i m clear tat v r stil frens, n u can juz ignore me
again....d only thing i can do is keeping down/silent
but i m juz trying 2 care bout u...is it 2 over 4 u??
mayb it is...but is it tat hard even juz 2 reply a short msg 2 me???
i m so curious!!!n a bit frustrated!!!!

2012

well...a new yr...
wat i m going 2 do r...
study hard...perhaps not tat hard, juz not playing around...
social...nw, i noe who shud i interact wit n who shud i stay away from
finance...less outdoor activities, go on invitation only, nvr do invitation(enuf wit doing tat as well!!!)
tat's ol...
i nid 2 b mature...
at lis better than b4...
happy new yr~